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Eric Tan Ze Sheng Y
free-thinker Y 21 going on 22(2009) Y
14.04.1987 Y
Temasek Polytechnic - Info-Communication Y
Msn/Friendster: eric86@hotmail.com Y
right now is 6.30am....another 26 hour i will be heading to another island for my next part of life....yes! i'm going tekong bmtc school 2 to train to protect country....haha....but somehow i just felt that time really pass by very fast....it's seem like yesterday i just completed my week zero orientation or just had a great night of fun with all my fellow kiakis....though my outside or words says that i'm not afraid of going army and treat it like very easy to get pass....but deep down inside i'm panicing about what kind of life it will be inside....i know it will be tough with all the training....but how tough will it get....will i still be remembered when i book out after 2 weeks....or will i just spend my weekend at home sleeping and sleeping....
recently have been wondering....what kind of ze sheng aka eric have he turned into....have he turned into someone that become super picky and easily hate and look down on people....have he turn into a person that people just hates him for who he is now....recently realised that i'm will get pissed or angry with someone very VERY VERY VERY easily....for instance like dislike people to report some small matters to another person that is concern....for example talking to a friend about another friend rumours and he/she went to tell that another friend about it....and that in return i become very cautious about their character and about what i want to chat with them....am i taking some small little small fishy thing way too serious....am i thinking way too much into people's act or word....
right now before i actually get enlist into tekong....inside my heart i actually wish to see one person the most....but i know she won't be reading the blog so i shall just say it here....i really wish to see xiao zhu zhu aka piggy aka danicia alot....because i know very well that some space inside my heart still thinks about her....is she doing well or is she feeling stressed up? from the time i know her....i know she very easily get stressed up and always needed someone to be there for her....someone to be there to cheer her up and make her feel confidence in doing her assignment....someone to always show her concern if she very late still doing assignment and also waking her up everyday because she always can't wake up on time de....recently heard from her friend that she felt very sad the next day after we had a big quarrel the other night....i know i had made a big mistake and i regret it alot ALOT....but somehow i'm just concerned....i'm concerned about you....because i simply just can't lose you....because you had been very precious to me ever since we get to know each other closely....i also didn't feel good after that quarrel up till now....many times i wish to sms, msn and even call you....but i just don't dare to....because i scared you might treat me like a stranger....alot of times when i happen to pass by places that we once spend time together....it will always remind me of you....still remember near your house the bubble tea shop....now and then when i happen to go there to have dinner at the market....i will always remember that day when we sit outside the shop and take photo of you and listening to the mp3 you let me listen....now i just wish to tell you i'm really sorry about how i treat you....because to me you mean oxygen....the moment i don't have oxygen....my life seem to become black and white and nothing seem interesting....i'm so anxious about you and him hanging out together and in close contact means that i somehow afraid that one day you might just stick together very often and completely lose communication with you....frankly speaking....my hearts bleed everytime i asked you to go find him and ask him to take care of you....because that's is just a stupid angry comment....
