Friday, December 21, 2007
just had OTC from monday till wednesday....had a great time there knowing new friends, cheering, playing games & laming around....though it's not as wonderful as the time i spent with serpion or kaistor....but it's still very memoriable because camp are always the best where all fun happens....one camp is over and the next one is coming....OTC just ended and i'm getting busy with e-guides training camp already....the camp is just next thursday till saturday and i still had lots of things yet to be done....somemore all the holiday festival are here....hari raya, christmas and new year....but all this busying with camp stuff is worthwhile because i really can find lots of fun there....how i wish i now is still a year 1 who are craving for more and more camp ahead....another few more months i will graduated....the camps that are left for me are e-guides, FO, MTC and week zero....i will really miss the life as a TP student....
11:27 PM
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
term test coming i'm yet to study for my papers....want and got the heart to study but don't have the strength to do it....to everybody out there who are having their exam or term test soon....do work hard and really score well for it....just want to apologise to someone i have recently neglect so much....sorry that i didn't really sms or call you nowadays....but i glad to have you around....because you never failed to try cheer me up when i'm down....you always there for me when i needed someone to care for me....at times i really wish what's bothering you inside as well....but you just said nothing....but whatever the case is....you can always depend on me to hear your problem....“当你不开心时，我就会变成萤火虫。。。
在你身边飞，逗你开心逗你笑！
答应我，每天都要开开心心。。。
我不想每天变成萤火虫，
你知道啦！屁股很烧的咧！”
2:12 AM
Saturday, December 01, 2007
just wish to say something that not been disrespectful or what....but how i wish i can use my life to exchange the other 5 innocent life from the cambodia tragedy....because seriously their life is worth a thousand more times important than me....i'm really getting tired....the kind of tired nobody can really understand....people can say me emo and can say that my EQ is very low....but i'm just born to be this way....how i wish i can have the kind of innocent life that i had before during my kindagarden or primary school life....a life that will never have to feel trouble about what the adult world are....
since secondary school....i saw alot of life experience with my eye and i realise the adult life is very complicated and troublesome at times....but right now....i just felt as though i am someone who always lend my helping hand for those who seeks help and in the end i felt that they just feel happy that they got the help they needed but yet don't know who is the one they helps them....in another words....they are taking the person who helps them for granted....that's the kind of life i feels now....
sometimes i just hope that in this world they is this method or medicine that can clone ourselves image and have all the same personalities that we possess except that they do not have the attribute call trouble....because without trouble i guess the world and life will be much happier for them....if this kind of clone do exist....i really do hope it can understand how i feels now....but too bad that's no such thing....and yet there's no such kind of friend that can really understand 100% how i feel....the only person that can really talks to me now and make me cheer up happens to just know me also instead of someone who knows longer than me....
for goodness sake....for anybody who reads my blog....please spare me....don't take me for granted and also don't make me feel like a fool....i already experienced before the feeling of being a fool....for the 2 of you....please don't make me feel like a fool again....because i will just feel depress....because all i can think of is that all of you are treating me more like a fool than friend....this way is always called taking me for granted....right now i felt that i'm just being a real big fool being listening to all your bullshit and in the end what is see is not what you 2 said....
all i ever want is just a simple life....i just want to be a good, cheerful, respectful leader that can find a good job in the future and give myself a good life....that's all i really asked for....so for those who are treating me like a fool and taking me for granted....then i just beg you all please spare me and leave me alone....
"It's hurting to see the one you like is right beside you but yet she can't be yours"
11:38 PM
